She sunk into the bed the moment she got into the room. How does one love and hate at the same time?
She loved her husband more than she loved her own life,she also hated him in the same measure. He had spoilt whatever self esteem she once had for herself. He had filled her ears with all her inadequacies. This wasn't the kind of marriage she envisioned as a child.
She had always looked and prepared for a great marriage, one that was a direct explanation of the love Christ had for the church. A love that was never cold. A love that complimented not condemned . She could barely remember the last time Bode told her something good about herself. She spent a lot of time working for him and the children.
All she did, she did for her family. She barely had time for herself., she used to make her hair twice a month, now she did it twice in two months.
The last time she wrote was two years ago. Having a book had always been her dream as a young teenager. She had grown up loving and admiring the likes of Francine, Lori Wick and off course Karen Kingsbury.
Becoming a best selling author had been her dream but she gave it all up for Bode. The moment he slipped the gold plated ring in her finger on their wedding day, her entire life became his.
She began living for him, after two years the children joined. Still Bode had the right to look her in the face and complain about her coming home late from work as if she was playing all day.
She pulled her heeled shoes off, dried her tears and slept on the bed. Whatever it took, this hell of a marriage would end. Nothing and no one would stop that.
The door opened, Bode came in view.
"what do you want? Your room is upstairs " she asked coldly,
" can we talk? " he said, shutting the door. It would be a disaster if any of this woke the children up.
" what exactly are we going to be saying? "
" I know we've had very bad moments in our marriage, but it would be totally unfair to not remember the great moments we've had"
"I hope you are not trying to stop me from getting a divorce , because my mind is made up already. I have had enough of this dungeon called marriage "
" My love.... "
" the last time I heard you call me that, was two year ago" she fired, interrupting him.
Bode froze in shock, he had unconsciously stopped affirming his love for Cynthia. How could he have forgotten the one thing Cynthia deeply loved. Words of affirmation!
He had being so caught up in his life and wants that he failed to realize all that his wife had done and was still doing. As much as he wanted to explain his reasons, he knew more than anyone that no excuse was befitting enough to vindicate him. He was blatantly wrong!
With his two knees stuck on the floor, he said the words he had not said in a long time. "I love you Cynthia Philip.... I know that I haven't being the best husband. I have being selfish and self seeking. Thinking about myself only and never really thinking about you. There is absolutely no excuse for my bad behavior"
As the tears flowed out of her husband, Cynthia was lost for words,how could she not love this man. She could never bring herself to hate Bode Philip. No matter how hard she tried, the sound of his voice alone would still send shivers down her spine. She would love Him all her life!
"As much as I would like to say that I would change immediately and be the man you want, I know it won't happen so fast. But I am willing to change. I would yield myself to God as he moulds me into the man you deserve. Yes it would be hard but for your sake, it would be worth every pain"
"Bode.. "
" Pls Cynthia stay with me. I love you too much to loose you. You are my wife, my very flesh and blood, you are my bone, without you I would have lost an irreplaceable part of me" he dried his tears with the back of his palms and continued "I love you Cynthia! Can we please start over?"
"You just weakened me. Please hold me in your arms. That is all I need right now. I wasn't so much of a saint myself. Will give my own forgiveness speech later ... I just need you to hug me right now.. "
With all the love in his heart, he walked to the bed and wrapped his arms around the woman he would love all his life. The mother of his kids, his wife!
" Thank you my love" the words brought so much emotions as she said them. She stole a glance at the wall clock , it was four in the morning. God had supernaturally stopped her from damaging her marriage...
She couldn't thank Him enough...
As their eyes met, so did their lips.
It wasn't just any kiss, it was a kiss that signified the beginning of a new covenant... A covenant that said, TILL DEATH DO US PART, AND MEANT IT!
THE END!
How beautiful it would be if every attempt at divorce ends like that of Bode and Cynthia, but it unfortunately doesn't always happen that way...
If you and I decide today that for our marriages,divorce will never be an option, we would make a lot of difference .. Because the truth is divorce is never the best option..
The beauty of a marriage is determined by the people involved...
To the unmarried ones, if you want a great marriage, you have to start learning to be a great wife / husband... Having an awesome marriage requires hardwork but it is very possible!
She loved her husband more than she loved her own life,she also hated him in the same measure. He had spoilt whatever self esteem she once had for herself. He had filled her ears with all her inadequacies. This wasn't the kind of marriage she envisioned as a child.
She had always looked and prepared for a great marriage, one that was a direct explanation of the love Christ had for the church. A love that was never cold. A love that complimented not condemned . She could barely remember the last time Bode told her something good about herself. She spent a lot of time working for him and the children.
All she did, she did for her family. She barely had time for herself., she used to make her hair twice a month, now she did it twice in two months.
The last time she wrote was two years ago. Having a book had always been her dream as a young teenager. She had grown up loving and admiring the likes of Francine, Lori Wick and off course Karen Kingsbury.
Becoming a best selling author had been her dream but she gave it all up for Bode. The moment he slipped the gold plated ring in her finger on their wedding day, her entire life became his.
She began living for him, after two years the children joined. Still Bode had the right to look her in the face and complain about her coming home late from work as if she was playing all day.
She pulled her heeled shoes off, dried her tears and slept on the bed. Whatever it took, this hell of a marriage would end. Nothing and no one would stop that.
The door opened, Bode came in view.
"what do you want? Your room is upstairs " she asked coldly,
" can we talk? " he said, shutting the door. It would be a disaster if any of this woke the children up.
" what exactly are we going to be saying? "
" I know we've had very bad moments in our marriage, but it would be totally unfair to not remember the great moments we've had"
"I hope you are not trying to stop me from getting a divorce , because my mind is made up already. I have had enough of this dungeon called marriage "
" My love.... "
" the last time I heard you call me that, was two year ago" she fired, interrupting him.
Bode froze in shock, he had unconsciously stopped affirming his love for Cynthia. How could he have forgotten the one thing Cynthia deeply loved. Words of affirmation!
He had being so caught up in his life and wants that he failed to realize all that his wife had done and was still doing. As much as he wanted to explain his reasons, he knew more than anyone that no excuse was befitting enough to vindicate him. He was blatantly wrong!
With his two knees stuck on the floor, he said the words he had not said in a long time. "I love you Cynthia Philip.... I know that I haven't being the best husband. I have being selfish and self seeking. Thinking about myself only and never really thinking about you. There is absolutely no excuse for my bad behavior"
As the tears flowed out of her husband, Cynthia was lost for words,how could she not love this man. She could never bring herself to hate Bode Philip. No matter how hard she tried, the sound of his voice alone would still send shivers down her spine. She would love Him all her life!
"As much as I would like to say that I would change immediately and be the man you want, I know it won't happen so fast. But I am willing to change. I would yield myself to God as he moulds me into the man you deserve. Yes it would be hard but for your sake, it would be worth every pain"
"Bode.. "
" Pls Cynthia stay with me. I love you too much to loose you. You are my wife, my very flesh and blood, you are my bone, without you I would have lost an irreplaceable part of me" he dried his tears with the back of his palms and continued "I love you Cynthia! Can we please start over?"
"You just weakened me. Please hold me in your arms. That is all I need right now. I wasn't so much of a saint myself. Will give my own forgiveness speech later ... I just need you to hug me right now.. "
With all the love in his heart, he walked to the bed and wrapped his arms around the woman he would love all his life. The mother of his kids, his wife!
" Thank you my love" the words brought so much emotions as she said them. She stole a glance at the wall clock , it was four in the morning. God had supernaturally stopped her from damaging her marriage...
She couldn't thank Him enough...
As their eyes met, so did their lips.
It wasn't just any kiss, it was a kiss that signified the beginning of a new covenant... A covenant that said, TILL DEATH DO US PART, AND MEANT IT!
THE END!
How beautiful it would be if every attempt at divorce ends like that of Bode and Cynthia, but it unfortunately doesn't always happen that way...
If you and I decide today that for our marriages,divorce will never be an option, we would make a lot of difference .. Because the truth is divorce is never the best option..
The beauty of a marriage is determined by the people involved...
To the unmarried ones, if you want a great marriage, you have to start learning to be a great wife / husband... Having an awesome marriage requires hardwork but it is very possible!
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