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I LOVE YOU!!!


     I LOVE YOU!!!!! those are amazing words,don't you think? i have met a whole lot of people in very small life here on earth and i've heard those words eh! as in seriously. Being a lady only kinda worsens the issue...ladies dey try sha(just thinking aloud).
    Hi every one! that was an intro to...i don't know...i guess thats what i'll be writing about,but with the Holy spirit,you can't be too sure(He can decide to change direction anytime,anyday). Being a female is beautiful(in capital letter). There are just so many goodies that we just naturally get. Jerry Ibaz sometimes finds it difficult to understand why a bike man will stop beside us and actually ask to take me(the man will barely notice Jerry) to wherever i'm going,without my paying a single dime! amazing!!!! its just a mystery that people cannot understand even the females....i didn't plan to make this a female to female chat ooo...but things are about to happen,like i usually say at the end of every post,i am submitted to His Word. I write what He wants me to write. so please just flow.
    Its  amazing to think of the fact that a whole lot of people do not like themselves! I listen to a lot of Joyce Meyer(i love that woman to the bones mehn),i was going through something she wrote in her book last night and she actually mentioned that she has spoken with thousands of people who just cannot accept themselves. The question that keeps popping out in head is WHY?
    Why cant you accept that God made you the way you are? why cant you just accept that you were not created to be quiet? why not just get it into your wonderful skull,that you aren't as fair or dark as your class mate? you didn't get to be the head prefect,then so what? does it make you any less who you are? absolutely not!
     A whole lot of people are not just done chewing the fact their hair isn't as long as their friend's(directed at the females). Some of us still cannot stomach the fact that we do not have as much as our friend does. The day that I finally came to understand that all I have now was given to me by God,it changed  by life,because it made me understand that if I needed more things,He definitely would have given me.
   At a younger age,I wasn't exactly having self esteem issues,but i had issues accepting the fact that i had a strong personality. I wasn't a  blunt person but i can say i was strong willed and i still am strong willed. If i say i wasn't going to do something, I definitely wasn't going to do it! I am the Joyce Meyer kind of person,very decisive and standing my ground and I didn't like it. I wanted to be the type that could easily break down to people's will and do what they want me to do without having to think deeply about it. I wanted to be so together,quiet and composed like some ladies out there( the virtuous woman....if i hear)
  I started working towards my goal....and i worked hard(trust me when i say i worked haaaarrrdddd!!!) and guess what,all my effort wasn't in vain because I accomplished it,okay maybe not totally but to a very large extent. I became the woman i had in mind and there was still problem! infact the problem increased. Because to start with the woman i had in mind didn't exist in me or maybe i should say wasn't supposed to exist in me! but i was too blind to see.
    I started seeing the reason why God has made me the way that I am recently. If i was a go-with-the-flow kind of person and did what people wanted me to do just the way they wanted me to,i would have died a long time ago(and i'm not kidding) and I wont have accomplished a single thing in my life. I would have being a miserable little girl who would end up living below God's standard for her life and that would be bad!
   As a child i was really masculine,and i felt it was a problem. and just as always,i proceeded to working on myself. i am now so feminine and i love it!  Here comes the other gist,I met a fourteen year old girl yesterday at a party i attended,her name i do not know and i was intrigued by her. She had a bandana tied round her head(every one was supposed to wear that anyway...it was a dress code sort of),she wore a white sneakers,a blue three quarter jean trousers on a black top. She looked so nice on the sneakers and all...and she was was acting really masculine... it made me remember the days of wearing my cap with the front behind...the days of wearing sneakers on shorts..It just made me remember little Amaka! the girl who would jump the stair case like a guy,the girl who would dance with so much passion without caring anything. I'm not in anyway saying that i regret learning to be feminine(i love being feminine!!! like i said,being a girl is fun!) but seeing that girl just made me remember a whole lot of things...
    I feel really sad when I see people who do not love themselves..YOU DO NOT HAVE TO BE PERFECT TO LOVE YOURSELF! you can choose to love you NOW!  Someone once asked me why i always behaved like a strong girl and I smiled and said 'I do not behave like a strong girl oo'. I think people see me that way because I have come to a point in my life where I have realized that I do not need to be strong all the time,so I give myself space to feel weak. Believe it or not,it makes me need God more,it makes me pray more and it makes me stronger.
  This is to those who feel they have to always look,i have it all together!!!!!.I do not have it all together and i'm not ashamed to show it. God has it all together and guess what,He's backing me up!  please say this aloud, I ACCEPT MYSELF! keep saying it until you believe it,don't sop saying it until it sinks in! hope we know that there's a difference between loving yourself and accepting yourself? and both are important in your life and existence.
   Someone once told me that I wasn't normal and I smiled and said "No one is!"( chew on that for a while..lol) I really hope my point has being passed across. You do not need to act like the girl down the road who seems so perfect or look like the fair or chocolate girl down the street,who every guy dotes on. All God wants you to be is YOU! and trust me,that's the easiest person to be! and that's the best way to please God. when you are who He made you,you  are simply telling Him that you trust that He made you the best way you could ever be!
As you go about this week's activity,please always remember that you do not have to be fake to be loved! I love you!!!
                                                                                                            submitted to His Word
                                                                                                             Amakason...



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  1. True talk...happy you found your feminity.

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